salamunalaik :D 

i'm scared of waiting for everything that are going to happen in my life. life is not easy, right? you have to struggle and find the best way for a better life. it is not as simple easy as counting one two three. there are so many obstacles that you have to go through. :)

and for me, the spm is the main reason i'm being scared. seeing the how many days left is already make me worried. it's not can i do my best but, its about can i get the best. 

see the pictures above? its from adam, my loves one. every time i see this pictures, i can feel how much he wants me to do my best. get the best score in my spm, not neglecting him and our parents. 

after nikah, i always got the supporter, the motivator from him :)

and, i know, that he will be very sad if i didn't get the 12a's 

yes,

you can say 'takpelah, dah ade laki, tak dapat result bagus pun takpe..'

'alah, laki kau sayang kau, ape kesah?..'

HA.HA.HA

hey, if i always have that kind of thinking, how can i do my best?..

and, what does his supportment and motivation for?..

he must be very sad, the one that he loves, the one that he put the trust on to do the best, 

and the one that can make his world fills up with rainbows,

just can do anything and neglecting him down.

and again.

HA.HA.HA

if i have that kind of thinking,

is it true that i love him?

i said that i can make him happy,

but,

if i didn't get the best?

how can him be happy?

you must be asking, 

'ape kaitan orang dah kahwin punye pemikiran dengan orang tak kahwin punye pemikiran?'

hey, ade kaitan, okayy?..

you have your parents, they support you, they give their everything to see their child get the best,

and they loves you. 

and you, as their child? 

you always get support from them, and you love them. 

why don't you be a thankful child by making them smile with your result? 

hey, awak,

do your best in your exam. will ya?

and pray for me, for us :)

p/s;

sayang, im going to  do my best.

live well :)

i always waiting for you.

miss(s) you.

<3

salamunlaik! :D
alhamdulillah, i've already finished my trial yesterday and, i already get my result. haha. alhamdulillah, my mathematics is improving. from 46 to 87!! see?.. if we try our best, nothing is impossible :D but, my addmath is *duhh~* i donno what to say. and the spm is coming. another 48 days, yaww!
 pray for me, will you?.. i'm so scared, and i really want that 12 a's.. even i'm not going to further my study, i still want that 12 a's for my sayang who always supporting me and want me to do my best, and of course, for Him, Allah SubhanahuWaTa'ala. :)

p/s: i love you, sayang.. hey, do your best okay?.. alhamdulillah, i'm improving nowadays. even you are not here sayang, i can feel you even when i close my eyes. :) and yet, i've become stronger and stronger. i want to show you, that the 'pengorbanan" that you've made, tach me a lot. take care, sayang. <3 salamunalaik :D

puff :P

salamunalaik,,
i get my motivation again! :D selepas beberapa ketika sesi muhasabah diri dengan others blog,, i finally feel better.i just thought that, there is good thing behind this, there's hikmah for the thing happen.. like, to make us stronger, to make us more menghargai diri masing-masing :) alhamdulillah :')

woaahh! tepuk tangan sebab dapat motivation balik~

for HIM, thanks for being there, thanks for everything, teria kasih kerana menyatukan kami, Ya Rabbi.. thankyou :')

rainy days

salamunalaik,, until today, it has been a week, he left for his study in indonesia.. i feel like something is not right in this room.. haish, i totally miss him.. it just a week, rabiah.. but, you noe, it is not something that i can stand,, being further apart from him.. everything i've done, i always think, it is better if he is here with me.. i still remember the stuff that we always do, eat together, being my imam, remind me not to miss my ma'thurat after perform asar,, i always remember that.. but now, he is not here to company me when im hungry, to wake me up,  perform solah together, the ma'thurat thing.. :'(

yeah, im crying right now, because i really miss him.. when it comes the time that we should spend together to get know each other, we heve been further apart.. and yes, even how many time that i remind myself it is for our good, but, i always noe, that deep inside, i want to say to him, do not leave me alone. and people around me is always saying, 'takpe lah, tak lame pun, pejam celik, dah due tahun..' or ' alah, tak de ape pun,' or ' sabarlah, kejap je' and,, what can i do?.. gelak sahaje lah. ataupun. senyum sampai telinge. tapi, dalam hati, sape tahu?.. 

and awak tahu, saya tak mengharap belas ihsan sesiapa dalam hal ini. dont treat me like a baby, if you are, you are not helping me to be stronger but, it just gonna make me hurt, gonna make me cry every day, so just treat me like usual, like he is always with me.. and i guess with that, i can stand with this for 2 years and hopefully, the 'sabar' will always in me forever

for the readers, pray for us, will ya?.. 

may Allah bless :')

the raya

salamunalaik~

dah lame tak tulis blog nih..huhu.. kalau nak diikutkan, blog nih, rasenye tak ade dah.. tapi, rase time sekarang ni, nak kene adelah pulak.. hee :)

alhamdulillah, life with him is always great :D
on 31st August,, as usually, the family always have an open house when it's time for raya! rase happy tau, kumpul semua, tambah lagi dengan orang yang kite sangat sayang.. best perasaan tuh.. awak tahu,, macam mane rasenye kupas kulit bawang dengan orang kita sayang?.. haha, memang sweet sangat~ ( woooaaahhhh XD ) and rase macam comel sangat bile my darling tuh, pergi pasar dengan abi. and both of them, wore sweater with 3 quarter.. huhu :)

tapi, alhamdulillah, my darling dapat sambung belajar dekat indonesia :) memang sedih, tapi, as a wife, who else gonna support your husband if it is not you, rite? so, what can i do as his wife, i have to support him no matter what, gonna always be by his side, and always love him.. haha. memang susah sangat nak tahan keluar air mata masa nak hantar my sayang tuh,, Tuhan je lah yang tahu.. :( nak buat macam mane, for the future, we both have too.. :)

to my sayang, if you read this,,
do the best, don't worry about me, i will always support you, even i am not there, you noe that i will always be in your heart.. and the same with me, you'll always be by my side.. the thing is, now, you are there, going to study for our future, so, give your best shot kay, sayang?.. then after two years from now, take me along with you :) take care, sayang, <3 miss you :')