rainy days

salamunalaik,, until today, it has been a week, he left for his study in indonesia.. i feel like something is not right in this room.. haish, i totally miss him.. it just a week, rabiah.. but, you noe, it is not something that i can stand,, being further apart from him.. everything i've done, i always think, it is better if he is here with me.. i still remember the stuff that we always do, eat together, being my imam, remind me not to miss my ma'thurat after perform asar,, i always remember that.. but now, he is not here to company me when im hungry, to wake me up,  perform solah together, the ma'thurat thing.. :'(

yeah, im crying right now, because i really miss him.. when it comes the time that we should spend together to get know each other, we heve been further apart.. and yes, even how many time that i remind myself it is for our good, but, i always noe, that deep inside, i want to say to him, do not leave me alone. and people around me is always saying, 'takpe lah, tak lame pun, pejam celik, dah due tahun..' or ' alah, tak de ape pun,' or ' sabarlah, kejap je' and,, what can i do?.. gelak sahaje lah. ataupun. senyum sampai telinge. tapi, dalam hati, sape tahu?.. 

and awak tahu, saya tak mengharap belas ihsan sesiapa dalam hal ini. dont treat me like a baby, if you are, you are not helping me to be stronger but, it just gonna make me hurt, gonna make me cry every day, so just treat me like usual, like he is always with me.. and i guess with that, i can stand with this for 2 years and hopefully, the 'sabar' will always in me forever

for the readers, pray for us, will ya?.. 

may Allah bless :')